Not Sure What To Say...

Recently there has been a lot of big things going on in my life. Not all of them happy things. With the loss of a truly good friend, and the distancing between me and another friend. Death and loss have been a large chunk of life for me over the last few months, and as I see it, it will continue to be in my life, though hopefully not in such vast quantities all at once. So I am faced with many feelings and thoughts, not to mention my own mortality at the age of 21. What can I do you might ask. The answer for me came through many nights sitting up alone thinking. I was going to live. You say, "well everyone lives, whats the deal?" Well, I don't mean living like day to day work, eat, study, sleep, wake up and start all over type stuff. That isn't living, its existing. I mean I am choosing to live a life worth noticing. I am going to travel, I am going to party and make memories with the ones I love and care about, I am going to avoid drama as best as i can, and above all, I am going to make sure that when I am taking my last breaths in this world, I can look back and think, "I lived, I have no regrets, and I know that I loved and that I was loved in return." I know, enough of the mushy stuff. I'm being honest though, I have a list of things I wanna do with my life and it grows by the day. I'm gonna start crossing more things off that list.

Things I am Going to Do:
1. Get a tattoo, or give myself one
2. Learn more languages (as many as possible)
3: See my friend Jaz in Australia
4. See my cousin and his family in Germany
5. Go back to France and stay a while
6. Buy a motorcycle and take a road trip
7. Kiss a beautiful girl in the pouring rain
8. Fall in love
9. Get a knock out in the ring
10. Set foot on all continents
11. Have a kid
12. Live outside the US for longer than 6 months
13. See as much of the world as possible
14. Smile more
15. Laugh more
16. Worry less
17. More time well wasted
18. Learn to play guitar better
19. Make others laugh and smile more
20. Find more beauty in the world

These aren't all of the things I plan on doing, but its just a few thoughts. What do you guys think? What do you want to do in your life? Let me know.